i don't think i've updated since new years.

that was fun.
serious fun.
card games.
friends game.
drinking.
quiches.
and ruining my white satin gloves.
it was fantastic. <3

we failed at trying to see nine the next day.

then i worked sunday.

then three days off.

on tuesday i was supposed to go down with laura/bronwen to meet up with heather.
but our rides got messed up.
and for the shortened time of being able to go, i couldn't afford the train back and forth.
i really wanted to go.
you guys have no idea.
i was actually really upset afterwards.
about 30 seconds after i hung up my mom went on:
"ugh, great, now we have to cook something you can eat.
it was only supposed to be me and doug for dinner.
what do you want?"
to which i reply:
"don't worry about it.
i don't really care."
to which she replies:
"don't take it out on me!
god you can be such a bitch... blah blah blah."

i stopped listening and went downstairs.

the rest of the night was not what i had planned.

instead of going to toronto with friends, skating, and having fun i brooded in the basement reading stephen king and ignoring my mother.
not gonna lie, it sucked.
honestly, i really really wish i could've gone.
i'm not saying seeing you guys wasn't worth it.
but paying that much to only spend a few hours downtown is what isn't worth it to me.
i'd rather go for a day.
or a good chunk of the day.

i guess this sounds sort of like an apology.
i guess it is.
i was bitter.
i was grumpy.
and i got over it.
sorry.

on a lighter note...
i'm going to be on new birth control!
i know, i know, you guys don't care.
but it's just the name of it that makes me happy.
MARVELON.
you know like, MARVELon?
i'm going with every woman in the marvel comic universe takes it.


oh!
and now that you guys are away at school i thought i'd let you know i'm almost always up for a skype chat. i'm jadehoof on there too. because srsly, we do not talk enough when school is happening. :( so text me, or email me, or contact me by carrier pigeon when you want to chat. i only really log on when i mean to talk to someone.



and i've figured out my new years resolution.
i'm not going with learning about another religion.
i'm happy with what i know about christianity/catholicism/judaism.
so my resolution is: to have fabulous hair as often as possible and improve my wardrobe.
i don't care how shallow that sounds, it's what i want to aim for.
and maybe do more yoga. i've been slacking on that. :/



now if you excuse me, i'm going to bed.
<3

i've been listening to too much lady gaga.
and buying too many bustiers from work.

wait, that's a lie.
i could always listen to more and buy more.
there's never too much of those things.


( oh hai, 2009 re-cap thing. )

i guess i should update about christmas.

it was nice, really nice.

christmas eve, i was a mess.
but then i went to mass, and got over it.
catholic churches have a wonderful calming effect for me.
i feel like i'm home, but i know i don't belong.
don't ask.
i don't even know what it means.

then christmas morning came.
doug and i exchanged gifts.
i got the legendary starfy for DS.
a case for my new camera.
and another month of CoH/CoV.
:)

then we did presents with my parents.
got the new tarantino box set.
lady gaga cd.
webcam.
and space food.

well, those were the substantial gifts.
of course there were other snacks and things.

so that was nice.

went to my aunt's new apartment in scarborough.
by the time we got there my cousin paul was drunk.
it was the most fun he's been since he was 10.
and i got pots/pans and a coffee maker.
i asked for things that would be useful when doug and i moved out.
also got 1984 and the four volume version of hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy.
very nice christmas overall.

only downer was that doug was at his parent's house since this is our last christmas out here.
and he probably won't see them for holidays anymore.




and i ate a palatte of toffifee tonight.

blehhhhh.